I like blogs. Especially new ones which don't have mass amounts of friends added to them.

I got bored of VF Journal, Livejournal, Deadjournal, Blogspot and the other shite i'm usually wasting my time on. Here goes yet another 5 min trend for me to fondle with.

Past few days I think I hit one of my lowest points in a while. All because of new medication. I hate the way it fucks me up temporarily only to put me on a high.  Its all people seem to be capable of, feeding me more pills. Pills to help me sleep, Pills to keep me awake, Pills to make me smile, Pills to stop me getting pregnant and Pills to ease constant pain. All i could do was cry and think. I realised how fucked up I am to this very day. I pretty much hate myself without even realising it. I write to Kai knowing that someone 4500 miles away from me is feeling the exact same. Its a small piece of knowledge that keeps me going, I'm not the only one. I find it rare and treasurable to find someone who shares an understanding with me. Everyone else just expects and believes what they see on the outside. 'She dresses gawth, so obviously we have everything in common' 'She likes j-rock, i do too, we have to be friends' 'She knows so and so'. Fuck them all.

However my friends helped cheer me up. Always nice to have such nice people around me ^_^

To each their own - Thats what they say.

I have so much to do at the moment. Dee on saturday, Cosplay, Coursework, Hair things and tidying up to do.

Oyasuminasai!